system shock: media intake

in the last two weeks i’ve re-read all 10 of the anita books and re-watched roswell seasons 1 and 2. my brain hurts now. also, everything has kind of bled into one another, even though teenage aliens and a vampire executioner are really completely different storylines.

the other day i walked across a crosswalk in front of a car after having made eye contact with the driver to make sure he saw me, right? so he wouldn’t roll over me. but he and his little co-pilot punk both made noises of “whoa.” “hey.” “whatcha think you’re doing walking in front of my car, biotch.” and my automatic response was to shove my arms in thru the driver side window, pull out that bastard and beat the shit out of him. possibly then also to raise some zombies and have them eat him. round it all out by making cd’s play without a player, maybe. just to tie in some alien power with the violent aggressive behavior of anita. i feel the need for guns and multiple knives with various sheaths. to take martial arts. to have lots of sex with lots of different men, none of whom are human and all of whom have hair to their waist or longer.

i’m taking up issue though with book number 10. which always now reminds me of kati vol since it’s named cerulean sins. the number of inaccuracies in this book is staggering. both from what’s gone on in other books and what happens in the self-same fucking book. how old is damien? is he a thousand as all the other books have said? or 600 as this one says? how many times can jean-claude wear a blue shirt in a new shade that she’s never seen before? does musette have the ability to tell lies or not? this changes within a couple chapters. sooo irritating.

i’m tied down. i’m wrapped up. i’m a blank. i need my own personality back.