Nyotaimori

moo cow has been my baby for so long. but yesterday her liver problems morphed into additional lung problems and she gave up. i had to put my baby to sleep yesterday. and i don’t know what to do without her.

there’s little moo cow shaped holes in my world. coming home was depressing because she wasn’t there angling around the corner to meet me when i came in the door. typing this is incomplete because she’s not sleeping on the couch above my head. going into the kitchen is wrong because she isn’t there harassing me for food.

i miss her. i really, really miss her.

the last time marina was in town she noticed an IV bag hanging over my bed (it’s for moo cow). she was rather horrified and declared it odd. i’d forgotten that it was odd because i’ve gotten so used to it, but now upon considering it in light of marina’s reaction, it is pretty weird to have an IV bag hanging over your bed.

i’m going somewhere with this.

christmas this year was odd with the addition of babies. they’re like IV bags over the bed except, you know, they’re babies clinging to a mother. they leave me wondering when i will become so accustomed to them that i won’t even notice anymore that they’re IV bags.

last night at jacob and lisa’s sushi party, i was telling them about my christmas and the house i stayed in. i kept adding one fantastical fact atop another. yes, i said, we stayed in an enormous house with 7 bedrooms, 5 bathrooms, a pool table, giant screen TV, foozball, and three living rooms. i continued with, my room had 2 couches, 2 beds, a private exterior door with mini porch, and a jacuzzi tub in the bathroom. the house itself was on 30 acres of land and had it’s own waterfall–about 20 feet high. and i cuddled a 3 week old cougar cub.

i saw juno this week with kristen in san francisco. damn, but i loved that movie. it’s so sweet, endearing, and without any real malice. the characters were all an idealized version of how i’d like to think people are and it had 4 of my favorite TV actors in it–jason bateman, allison janney, jennifer garner, and michael cera.

short plot outline: juno gets pregnant by paul and the loring’s want to adopt the kid.

that was a goddamn short outline. anyway, then life ensues, you know, and there’s relationship problems with juno/paul and the lorings.

other than the really odd writing for teenagers and my cynical nature there’s nothing wrong with this movie. it’s delightful, quixotic, and reassuring.

i’ve kind of got to question though if it presents a very good role model of teenage pregnancy. nothing bad happens to juno. her parents are supportive, she finds adoptive parents for the kid, we see no serious evidence of her peers or teachers being mean to her for being knocked up, she goes back to her life as soon as she gives the kid up with a bare minimum of grief or verbalization of loss. how honest can this be? i liked it because it was optimistic and sweet, but i don’t know if i would want teenagers to see it without a lecture on safe sex.

also, when jason bateman’s character decides to move out he states that he thought juno would be happy. he doesn’t want to be a father after all and wants a divorce from jennifer garner’s baby-crazy character. but what the hell did he think would happen if juno was happy with his new apartment? what did he think she was going to do with the baby if she couldn’t give it to him and his wife? the possibility could exist that juno would keep the baby then and he would be stuck with a 16 year old live-in girlfriend and a baby. ridiculous. jason bateman was my least favorite character, which is sad since i love him so.

even though i have post movie gripes, i still really loved this movie and recommend it to everyone.

oh, i am going to raise him on the sex pistols, the ramones, the kinks, the clash…

baby, it is all punk, all the time.

a couple weeks ago i wrote the author of how to talk to a widower in order to rave about his book. here is my email to him:

Dear Mr. Tropper,

I don’t read a lot of literature. This is because I find most of it to be overly similar and repetitive. I prefer YA fiction—especially fantasy since (I think) it shows the most innovation in writing. However, I was recently house-sitting at someone’s residence and picked up How to Talk to a Widower. This was the same house at which I read The Book of Joe several years prior on a separate house-sitting gig (house-sitting and purloining reading material during the stint apparently go hand-in-hand for me). The point is that I remembered really liking The Book of Joe lo those many months before, and was delighted to try another one of your novels. Upon finishing How to Talk to a Widower all I could express was flabbergasted wonder at how amazing it was. Seriously. I raved about your book to anyone who would listen. You made me remember how enjoyable good literature could be and gave me the chance to talk about something a little more respectable than the vampiric teenage angst in my latest YA read. For writing such a marvelous book, I thank you a million times over and congratulate you on all your success. I’m not going to forget about you for years again now but will immediately go out and read your other two novels and look forward to the next one with barely tempered glee.

Sincerely,

Michele

this was unusual for me cause writing to celebrities is not a common occurrence in my life. but i really fucking loved that book. anyway, he wrote me back yesterday! and sure, it’s short and succinct, but still–delightful! friends with famous people!

Hi Michele. Thanks for the nice note. So glad you found me again.

Best,

JT

awwwwww!

my semester ended a week ago and since that time i’ve been a little stir-crazy. as you may have noticed since i went from posting once month to twice in one weekend. and now here again.

this semester i was taking 4 classes. 4 fucking graduate level courses. it was awful and marvelous and horrific all at once. i was taking:

intro to cataloging (way boring and painful to my GPA)

preservation management (actually quite fun)

publishing for the profession (interesting but difficult grader)

and international and comparative librarianship (my most favoritest class ever)

for that last one, i wrote a paper in a group on a university library in kenya. we were suggesting ways in which they could implement and expand a special collections at their uni. this has led to the potential of an internship IN KENYA at the uni for three of us who want to go and help them start the special collection plans we suggested. so sweet! so hopeful it comes to fruition!

we also made a poster for a conference in san jose last friday on our paper. where i networked and got business cards. awesome.

for the 3rd class–publishing for the profession–i wrote an article on the juvenile hall in my county. and thru THIS i’ve set up a special studies project for next semester to do a survey on delinquents, probation officers, and faculty at the hall on library usage and benefits. i’ll have to write a honking research paper and maybe will try to get a few other juvies to participate so i can do a comparative review. i’m so excited!! i even went to juvie today and got a tour of the building by the librarian. i saw teenagers in jumpsuits and handcuffs! it was crazy.

next semester i’ve also got an internship at the maritime academy in vallejo (a sweet gig with sailors), a class on EAD (encoding archival documents), and a class on services for racially and ethnically diverse communities (already fascinated). so i’m taking 4 courses again next semester like a loony. but by god, i’m going to finish at the end of summer. hopefully. man, fingers crossed.